Sometimes i wonder y is it painful to lose what is precious in your life..it is always so hard for me to accept things or someone i really hope for in my life disappear..

Each appearance is so meaningful yet Allah takes it away from me..What have i done wrong in life? Where have i not been right?

Making others smile is like a motto for me but somehow i can see the real smile and happiness in me? It feels like faking when i smile or laugh happily where deep down sinking i feel that life is a misery..

I put so much effort and strength to console myself in thinking what had happened before was jus merely a challenge Allah bestowed to show his Greatness but in the end it makes me feel that i am utterly a failure in life..Fail to succeed in my education, having a child and also having a wonderful family..

Despite of my losses..i am greatly thankful Allah gave me him who hv made life a blessing despite of my pain..His smiles..his strength..his love..his care and his belief heal the wound though it didnt cure...